Lost words

So here I find myself at 7:15 in the morning. I'm still awake, and I know I should be asleep. Have a friends wedding at 3:00. Another person from my childhood now married. Slow down people, I'm not ready to grow up that much. So I just got done watching the documentary "Dear Jack" again. That dvd makes me tear up every time. It also inspires me to write songs, and then I go try to pump out my next creation, but always just write a few lines and that's that. I have a song for the perfect girl out there, but until I meet her, the song will remain unfinished...

"I don't need a reason to do the things I do

As long as it makes you smile

I would be your fool to laugh at

If you would be my one and only

And only if I could kiss you

Kiss you without reason

It would be so perfect, no more or less than perfect

...okay more

Come dance with me

the ball room floor is empty

you may have the perfect dress

but i have got the perfect girl

so, come dance with me

Twirl for everyone to see

Even though the song may end

you and I go on forever"

My awesome friend Sarah is currently drawing up my next tattoo. It shall be beautiful when it is done. I saw the first sketch of her drawing last night. I can't wait until it's done!

So I have met my blog post quota for the last few months...(which is about one post) Nothing that interesting to say, just sometimes you have to talk to yourself.

My ideal location

I need to live somewhere I can be motivated. As much as I love Post Falls, Idaho, I don't know that it will hold me for too much longer.

It's only a matter of time before I run out of that last excuse to stay, or the last excuse not to go. It will always be home, and I will always return.

I don't know where I want to go, but it needs to be a place unfamiliar, exciting, and intimidating. I get bored without a challenge. So give me a small room surrounded by instruments, a pen, and some paper. Who needs a bed? It's not like I sleep anyway. A bed is just wasted space where I could fit a drum set and a mini fridge. Duh.

Can I Say...

I would just love to say that I love life. Plane and simple. I love my life, I love my family, I love my friends, and I love each and every day that is given to me. We all will be troubled over the little things in life, but we shall never let them define our lives. Everybody has an impact to make on this world. Let yours be filled with happiness and joy. You have been given a life to live. Live it to the fullest.

To my readers...

Happy new year. I'm excited for 2010. I think towards the end of 2009 I was starting to lose sight of some things. I don't know what they were really, but I am always so damn happy and towards the end of the year, I was dropping off a bit. I have realized my dreams and am so excited to run towards them.

What 2010 holds:

A new Angels and Airwaves CD. Which is entitled "Love" It comes out on Valentines Day and will be free of cost. Also, Angels and Airwaves made a movie with the same name that will be in theaters around the same time as the CD. The movie is not about the band, and doesn't feature the band. It is an actual movie that features a lot of their music and sends the message of the CD.

I'm hoping A NEW BLINK 182 CD. They start recording soon. You can bet I will know every last detail of this CD. I can't wait, Mark, Tom, and Travis moved my life in so many ways.

The birth of my next nephew or niece from my wonderful sister Kami. I can't wait to have another little kid to hang out with.

Honestly, that is all I know that 2010 will bring. The rest is a mystery. A wonderful mystery.

Anyway, this is post, and every post is simply for probably 3 people that read this. Ashley, Brad, and Lindsey, so for you I write the following.

Ashley - I miss you buddy. I'm jealous of everything you get to see and do. Your life is amazing and I don't think you even realize it. You are so artistic and you see beauty in virtually nothing. I don't know that you will ever "know" what you want to do in life, but I do know that every move you do make, will be the perfect move for you. I'll miss you greatly if you ever move far away, but will always be your friend.

Brad - You inspire me to do more. I follow your blog, and check out what you are up to with your art and such online, but when I come to visit, I'm always so impressed with the projects you have taken on and completed. Whenever I leave your place, I'm so inspired to go and just do something or anything. You are so kind and friendly and I wish we could hang out more. I expect you to be a part of the 2010 Christmas album. It is happening haha.

Lindsey - My big sister, I call you nearly every day, often without a thing to say. I don't even care. I just am happy to have somebody so random and friendly to be in my family. I love you beyond belief and thank you for everything you teach me. When we are old, you, me and Kami won't just know each other at holiday functions. We will be excited to see each other and play games together. You have come so far in music and it's amazing to me. I know you don't have a lot of time to put towards it, but it will always be there. You're a huge inspiration to me and I don't know where I would be without you.

I love all of you, and it's unfortunate that you all live down in the moscow/lewiston area, but I will take that for now, because I know you will all move further away much too soon.