Being sick is really not fun. Can I be better now? It's only been two days and I'm ready for it to be over. What a joy filled post this is. Okay, time to go get drugs. bye.

Living for my dying wish

I love Rise Against. Not just the music, but the message they have behind all their songs. It's not phoned in at all. It's true to what they believe. One of my favorites is the lyrics to "Give It All" 

We give it all 
This is the reason why I sing
So give it all
And it's these reasons that belong to me
Today I offer up myself to this
I'm living for my dying wish

I give it all 
Now there's a reason
There's a reason
To give it all

I love that song...I really want a tattoo with the words "living for my dying wish" Whatever that wish may be. The wish to love, to play, to laugh, to dream, but above all, the wish to do what defines you as you. 

I remember in speech we did this weird little test where it had all of these adjectives on a piece of paper, and you picked the five that you thought best described you....and then you had two other people pick the five they thought best described you. Afterwards you would compare and it really showed how others see you compared to who you thought you were....I know it's not 100% accurate because there are so many ways to describe somebody, and to narrow it down to five is a bit ridiculous, but I want the day to come where the answers read alike. I will know I'm not hiding who I am.....

And just to finish with a lyric by another band I love...Straylight Run....

"Sing like you think no one's listening" 

That is an amazing line....sing your heart out....don't let what others might think get in the way of passion.

New Band, New Opportunities

I would just like to say that I am so excited right now. I am playing music again....well, not that I ever stopped playing music, but I now belong to a new band; a new family is more like it. Fury For The Son, that is the band I now play with.

Who can say where it really started...if we are talking about the name of the band, and the beginning of where it started, you will have to ask mister Annie about that....but in terms of how it became what it is now, that I can fill you in on. 

The band is made up of Annie on guitar and vocals, Ryan on guitar, Mark on bass, and myself on the drums.

Ryan came to me one day telling me that he was going to go play guitar with a guy named Annie that he works with, and he mentioned he was looking for a drummer. So Ryan recommended me to fill the spot. It was odd because I have always been the guitar player in the band... so playing on the drums made me a little nervous....so the first day, me and Ryan drove way out in the middle of nowhere to find this guys house, and even before we had set anything up, it already felt like a band. I knew right away just from the Family Guy quotes being thrown around that we had a good connection haha. When we set everything up, Annie just started talking like we had been playing together for years. I just remember words like "Okay, I really want to start really focusing and working on the new album" and I'm thinking, "haha, we haven't even recorded an old album, let alone even played a song together" but it's just how it was. We were a band. We went straight to work on songs he had written. He had actually had this band before he moved to Idaho, but never really had a set line-up....moving forward a bit....we needed a bass player so Mark (mine and Ryan's best friend, roommate, and my former band mate) came into question. So yesterday we practiced with him on bass and it was the final piece to the band....We are getting closer with each practice to recording and getting ready for shows...the feeling is great. Something tells me that this is just the first you will hear from us. We are going somewhere with this. Just wait...