Lost words

So here I find myself at 7:15 in the morning. I'm still awake, and I know I should be asleep. Have a friends wedding at 3:00. Another person from my childhood now married. Slow down people, I'm not ready to grow up that much. So I just got done watching the documentary "Dear Jack" again. That dvd makes me tear up every time. It also inspires me to write songs, and then I go try to pump out my next creation, but always just write a few lines and that's that. I have a song for the perfect girl out there, but until I meet her, the song will remain unfinished...

"I don't need a reason to do the things I do

As long as it makes you smile

I would be your fool to laugh at

If you would be my one and only

And only if I could kiss you

Kiss you without reason

It would be so perfect, no more or less than perfect

...okay more

Come dance with me

the ball room floor is empty

you may have the perfect dress

but i have got the perfect girl

so, come dance with me

Twirl for everyone to see

Even though the song may end

you and I go on forever"

My awesome friend Sarah is currently drawing up my next tattoo. It shall be beautiful when it is done. I saw the first sketch of her drawing last night. I can't wait until it's done!

So I have met my blog post quota for the last few months...(which is about one post) Nothing that interesting to say, just sometimes you have to talk to yourself.

My ideal location

I need to live somewhere I can be motivated. As much as I love Post Falls, Idaho, I don't know that it will hold me for too much longer.

It's only a matter of time before I run out of that last excuse to stay, or the last excuse not to go. It will always be home, and I will always return.

I don't know where I want to go, but it needs to be a place unfamiliar, exciting, and intimidating. I get bored without a challenge. So give me a small room surrounded by instruments, a pen, and some paper. Who needs a bed? It's not like I sleep anyway. A bed is just wasted space where I could fit a drum set and a mini fridge. Duh.

Can I Say...

I would just love to say that I love life. Plane and simple. I love my life, I love my family, I love my friends, and I love each and every day that is given to me. We all will be troubled over the little things in life, but we shall never let them define our lives. Everybody has an impact to make on this world. Let yours be filled with happiness and joy. You have been given a life to live. Live it to the fullest.

To my readers...

Happy new year. I'm excited for 2010. I think towards the end of 2009 I was starting to lose sight of some things. I don't know what they were really, but I am always so damn happy and towards the end of the year, I was dropping off a bit. I have realized my dreams and am so excited to run towards them.

What 2010 holds:

A new Angels and Airwaves CD. Which is entitled "Love" It comes out on Valentines Day and will be free of cost. Also, Angels and Airwaves made a movie with the same name that will be in theaters around the same time as the CD. The movie is not about the band, and doesn't feature the band. It is an actual movie that features a lot of their music and sends the message of the CD.

I'm hoping A NEW BLINK 182 CD. They start recording soon. You can bet I will know every last detail of this CD. I can't wait, Mark, Tom, and Travis moved my life in so many ways.

The birth of my next nephew or niece from my wonderful sister Kami. I can't wait to have another little kid to hang out with.

Honestly, that is all I know that 2010 will bring. The rest is a mystery. A wonderful mystery.

Anyway, this is post, and every post is simply for probably 3 people that read this. Ashley, Brad, and Lindsey, so for you I write the following.

Ashley - I miss you buddy. I'm jealous of everything you get to see and do. Your life is amazing and I don't think you even realize it. You are so artistic and you see beauty in virtually nothing. I don't know that you will ever "know" what you want to do in life, but I do know that every move you do make, will be the perfect move for you. I'll miss you greatly if you ever move far away, but will always be your friend.

Brad - You inspire me to do more. I follow your blog, and check out what you are up to with your art and such online, but when I come to visit, I'm always so impressed with the projects you have taken on and completed. Whenever I leave your place, I'm so inspired to go and just do something or anything. You are so kind and friendly and I wish we could hang out more. I expect you to be a part of the 2010 Christmas album. It is happening haha.

Lindsey - My big sister, I call you nearly every day, often without a thing to say. I don't even care. I just am happy to have somebody so random and friendly to be in my family. I love you beyond belief and thank you for everything you teach me. When we are old, you, me and Kami won't just know each other at holiday functions. We will be excited to see each other and play games together. You have come so far in music and it's amazing to me. I know you don't have a lot of time to put towards it, but it will always be there. You're a huge inspiration to me and I don't know where I would be without you.

I love all of you, and it's unfortunate that you all live down in the moscow/lewiston area, but I will take that for now, because I know you will all move further away much too soon.

How about a 180?

So I am now realizing I am just going to have to live with the fact that I am one of those people who starts out blogs/posts with "I know I haven't updated this in a while"

That sucks.

You would think that maybe I have been so fantastically busy with my life and living out my dream of being a famous musician. Quite the contrary. Things change, that's life....and it's still amazing to me.

I joined Fury For The Son back around late January/early Feb. 2008. We practiced the crap out of those songs. We played our first show, it was amazing. I hear the Spokane Valley area had a hospital overflow with people with condition known as "having your face melted" However, the first show was our last show. We started recording and all was well. Until Anthony packed up his car and moved back to Oregon to give his life a new start. Good luck to him! However I then realized that my band was done. All that work was lost, but all the memory will remain and I had a blast. I'm totally fine with this because as long as I am failing at following my dreams, I'm still living for my dream.

I wanted to try starting a new band with remnants of old bands, but I'm no frontman. I can't possibly organize something like that. So I will just go back to writing one or two songs whenever inspiration strikes.

I am starting to realize an older passion for film. I loved my video production classes in high school and just never continued on with it. It would be amazing to go to film school, but at the same time, it's money I don't have and it's in a place I don't live. I could easily just move and take loans, but I don't even know if I really want to go to film school. I like reading up and learning at my own pace and learning what I want to learn.

I've started developing a story and a screenplay. There will be more on that when it's developed, but for now that's all I'm gonna go into.

Follow Dreams.

Blink 182, oh happy day

Just watched Blink do their first televised performance in like 4 years or so...amazing, They will be on Leno again tomorrow, and you can be sure I will watch. Tour begins soon and I shall be traveling to Seattle on Sep. 10th to see them. It will be the greatest day ever. yay. 

Updates for the few people who might read this

Oh let's see where I am in my life. I have been crazy busy at work. Not a lot of fun. Trying not to complain though because I could be in the unemployment line like half of the world right now. Some people are trying to find something just enough to get their bills paid, and I am working more than I possibly need to be. Hopefully it will all start getting better in the coming months, but in the mean time I guess I will just make some crazy amounts of money and have no life.

Fury For The Son is going great. I love playing music. We talked it over today, and our first tour van is totally going to have a giant unicorn horn sticking out above the windshield. I'm quite aware we haven't even had our first show yet, but no worries, we will go on our own tour, and hopefully work will let me do that when the time comes, but even if they don't, I don't care. It's my dream and I will leave my job to live that dream. 

I love my friends and the amazing talent they have. I want everyone of my friends to be successful in life and become absolutely awesome at whatever they do. I want to come back to Post Falls in 5 to 10 years and hang out with everyone and hear about their adventures, but for now we must all work on living those adventures. So start living people so I can have my stories when the time comes.

I've stopped looking for a significant other at the time. If they want to find me, that would be excellent because I just don't have the time. It's rather hard to find someone I could see myself being with in all aspects of my life. My friends come in a wide variety....some are musical, some faithful, some vulgar, and some just plain weird. Finding a girl that fits into all these situations is not easy to find....some are just too hardcore, and others are just not hardcore enough haha, and hardcore is such a funny way to describe someone. So let it be known....looking for a lot of qualities in a girl, here are a sample of some.

1) Must be awesome

2) Must laugh at rappers

3) Like me for me

4) In some way be artsy

5) Have the ability to rock out

If you have seen this person, have them contact me.

I'm tired of individuals that can't make up their mind if they want to be a part of my life or not. It gets annoying when they change their answer every 4-8 months. 

I miss sleeping for 10-12 hours without a care in the world. That was nice.

I do love my life. No matter how down I may get one day. I still love what I have. I wouldn't trade it, because no life is perfect. 

I love my iPhone and everyone should get one because it is the greatest thing ever. Seriously, an App. for everything. 

Goals for summer 2009

-See Blink-182 in concert

-Record FFTS CD

-Play first show with FFTS

-Organize Birdy Mitten tourney

-Don't get sunburned

Okay, it's planned

That's my update